Happy Birthday

Know that I am always with you. You may not see me, but you are never forgotten. You are close to my heart, just like the day your tiny fingers first wrapped around mine. I remember how you could barely open your eyes, and yet there was this wonder inside me as I cared for you—fixing your little wounds, whether it was a splinter, a scraped knee, or just restless legs. A quick band-aid with your favorite Disney characters, and you were as good as new.

I watched, sometimes with a heavy heart, as your siblings didn’t always include you in their games. You were just a little too young to be seen as a real playmate, and sometimes they thought you were more of a bother than anything else. It hurt me because I wished for all of you to play together, to be kind to one another. But, even in that, something special happened. It gave us time for our own adventures. We went on daddy-daughter dates! Often, it was just running errands, but it always ended with a little treat for you. No, this wasn’t just to make you happy for the moment. It was my way of showing you how much I valued the time we spent together, your choice to be with me. And, when possible, your little brother came along too.

Today is hard for me. It’s the first birthday I’m not there to celebrate with you. Know that this wasn’t my choice, and more importantly, it’s all out of love. If you were here, I’d be playing “Happy Birthday” on my guitar, using a cut capo in the key of E, with those familiar D-shaped chords. Though you can’t hear it, and the candles I’ve lit are just for me to see, I’ll blow them out for you. I’ll borrow your wish, if I may. I wish for you to come back to me—safe, happy, and back in my arms. You are so precious to me. You have taught me how to love the way a father is meant to love his child.

I’m also saying a prayer for you—for another year full of beauty, adventure, and wonder in everything you do. I know you will grow into an amazing young woman who will take on the world with all your heart and soul. May your talents shine brighter, and may your wisdom grow even stronger.

Love always,

Daddy

Always Be A Good Human

Forgive me for the Errors.

I'm using voice to text. What I have to say is more important an ensuring that's grammatically correct. Maybe one day in the future I will edit.

Always be a good human. There are times in life when you're faced with challenges where you can choose the wrong thing. Or the right thing. For example, If someone cuts you off when you're driving because they are impatient and they are trying to get where they need to go. It's okay not to honk your horn. It's okay to not follow them are drive really closely. Sometimes you might come across. A person who is in pain are hurting and you can see it on their face. And most people would walk by but it is okay to say are you okay. It is okay to say do you need help. It is ok to say i'm here to help.

Now sometimes you might come across a Wolf in sheep's clothing. Pretending to be hurtare pretending to be in pain. So always keep an eye on for those looking to deceivebut always be ready. Always be prepared to lend a helping hand.

Sometimes being a good human being means that we need to look at ourselvesand watch what we do and how we do it. Sometimes we need to pay attention to the effects of our actions and behaviors. Yes, even before they happen, we need to ask ourselveswill this be something good and cause growth and life and good things. Or is this something bad that will cause death?  Are hurt people or hurt yourself.

We need to remap our brains to associate positivity and pleasure with doing good things.

We need to do this all the time and consistently. It will help to build up a life filled with change for the betterment of all humanity , but most importantly for those who are around you , especially for those that you love and care for.

We need to associate pain in displeasure with the things that destroy the world. The things that destroy tiny worlds. There are worlds that existonly in your mind. And sometimes those small worlds include a relationshi Sometimes they include an event Or a place. Be aware that those small worlds are just as important as the bigger world around us. Because it's those small worlds that impact our daily lives. And it is those small worlds that comprise the larger world around us. 

Be a good human be a good person. Be these things when others are not good to you. Sometimes we get conditioned by watching other people do horrible things. Sometimes we get conditioned by seeing those that we look up to do incredibly damaging things. Be aware that those actions or activities are not good and try to do the opposite. Instead of hoarding give. Instead of taking give. Instead of hiding standstrong and shine your lightat the top of a hill like a lampstand to illuminate all around.

If something takes time give it focus on it and see it through. Always take a breath , always give yourself peace always give yourself a reason because you are worth everything. I love you I care for you. 

-johnny